Adopted without knowing,
You are the chosen baby,
Where do I come from?
Where do I fit in?
Message from the abyss,
You'd better come in son,
He has been sent from god,
Your mother is no more.
Waves of inquisitiveness crashing,
Question of fatherhood deepens,
Developing dialogue anticipated,
Selfish bastard, my first glimpse.
Adoption leaves lingering problems
Loss, rejection, identity, the norm?
Plough on regardless,
Being the dreadful baby.
Nail the paternity search, finally?
2020s the year,
A white lie opens the door,
Support emerges at last.
The first transaction of many,
DNA, a whole new world,
NO RELATIONSHIP, the outcome,
Stop crying and go again.
One down, one to go, sounds easy,
He'll never accept the child as is,
Keeping his freedom much longer,
I can't help you, I can't help you, I can't help you.
The justice system could help me, surely?
More costs at my expense,
Helplessness and differentiated anger,
At the mercy of others.
Well-trodden path is non-existent,
Coldplay brought on the tears,
Financial obligations outweigh human rights,
Search journey consumes me at last.
Unexpected DNA test agreement,
Deserted motorways conquered,
Six-million-dollar man he was not,
NO RELATIONSHIP, again the outcome.
Dotting the i's and crossing the t's,
DNA test, third time to be sure,
NO RELATIONSHIP, you guessed it,
Was the search now over?
Pen and paper now the past,
Social media now the norm,
Reaching out to past and present,
Acquaintances, neighbours, nothing doing.
Knight in shining armour arrives,
By the name of Finder Monkey,
Another cheque to be written,
A foothold into the right family lines?
DNA shared with thousands,
Ancestral connections worldwide,
469 fourth cousins or closer,
Genetic evidence at last.
Bureaucracy brings search to a standstill,
Due diligence and checks duty bound,
Positive outlook severely tested,
Green light, ecstatic, game on.
Letters sent to the most likely,
The younger brother of two,
No response triggered initially,
But creeping ever closer to the truth.
Finder Monkey's work is done,
Comfort blanket now gone,
Reliance on new family connections,
Target is now in sight.
Personal approach adopted,
A letter from the heart,
Options not in abundance,
But, he who dares, wins.
Miracles do happen,
Christmas eve, the date,
Acknowledgement from the caller,
My father, yes, my father.
Greatest day commences with Take That,
My heart pounding aplenty,
Seeing and touching biological lineage,
Mentally drained, but closure at last.
If mother was only watching,
The unconventional path I'd trod,
The mammoth search now over,
No stone left unturned, it took.